It's Natural to Be Afraid

Lots of shit happens in life, sometimes more so than you want. Acutally, most of the time you don't want shit to happen. You want rainbows and butterflies and smiles 24/7. Too bad it isn't actually like that. Life is always like a constant whirlpool for me, spinning faster and faster until I'm left wondering when I'm going to be sucked down the hole into the cold depths of the ocean. The shelter I have built to house my heart from any more hurt apparently has no insolation, I have become cold. That thought scares me. I'm missing support from my life, but there is one person who has always stuck around for me. She brings comedy and joyfulness into my life, and I am forever grateful I have met such a wonderful person. The best, most genuine friend I could ever ask for. Though you live so far away, you're always close by in my heart. I know, so cheesy. But really, I don't know what I would do without you. I'd be in a straight jacket :p In a way, I'm glad we live at a distance. It gives me a literal place for refuge, away from this city and everyone in it, to start new for awhile. Until I come back, that is. I just need you to know that you have helped me through so much and for that I am entirely thankful, grateful, and happy I have you in my life. You know who you are :) thank you, so much for always being the last one standing there as the storm calms. <3