Day Old Hate

So uhh, I don't know how to start these things... Well first let me start off to say how I named the post. I am terrible at thinking of names so I decided that before I post I will turn on my ipod to get in the zonnneeeee, and the post name is gonna be the name of the song I am listening to. Yaa buddyyy. ANYWAYS. So. To start off, this is super cool to just be able to say whatever the hell I want and just let my feelings out, I don't get to do that enough. But yeah, again, ANYWAYS.. I am currently battling a war in my brain about what is right and what isn't. I haven't really had a whole lot of time to actually think about my emotions because Antigone was all the last couple of weeks so I've been super preoccupied with that (it went super well by the way :D) but yeah so here goes the unloading .... So a month ago tomorrow I started dating Micah. he's a super nice guy, but since we started dating, I'm not sure why, but I have been thinking a lot about Dustin, and for some odd reason I've been missing him... I shouldn't be, and that's why I'm so confused. He messaged me a couple weeks ago and just sent me a song. It was random, it had no meaning, it was just a dubstep song. Since he sent that, we started talking and for some reason, that really hurt me to talk to him. I wish it didn't, and I'm not sure why it did because I really thought I was over him. Apparently not. I think about him a lot. I don't think it's fair to Micah that I've been thinking about an ex, and comparing how things were with him to how things are now. I don't know. The last thing that Dustin has said to me, it was about a week ago, he asked me if I missed him. I couldn't respond to that because I don't know the real answer, and also, I have such a great thing to say but I really feel like it isn't a good thing to say because I'm in a relationship at the moment. I really want to respond, and I want to see what he would say, but at the same time, I really cannot go back to him. I just am having a crisis of faith about being with someone, I don't think I'm ever going to find someone who I'm so comfortable around as I was with Dustin. It's confusing and I really don't know what to do about it. I really want to give Micah a chance but I am really not feeling it at all. I think all the crap I've been through has made me cold; and that thought kind of scares me. I knew something wasn't right when I wasn't all giddy and googly-eyed about Micah when we started dating because normally, I'm so into guys I like. But all I felt was pain... That isn't what I should be feeling. I know that he likes me more than I like him, that is definitely for sure. So yeah. I only really feel like talking about my boy issues right now because that is what's currently on my mind. I have other problems but I guess I'll talk about them in a different post :p